what a day

holy fuck that all i have to say, and you know why.  it started great with me knowing you were there before i even saw you, but then it went down hill.  that said you got me through it.  you listened to me bitch and complain even though you had the same type of day.  but then you said something, those three little words that have the ability to warm my heart. you know you do that.  for so many reasons, i know that I've ruined that which you love.  you're so amazing though and you don't blame me, you look to other sources for that.  that makes me feel hope, that you feel the way that you do even though I've done what I've done, in my own typical fashion.  i told you today that i usually don't let people in or let them close, the reason is bc i know that i always mess it up.  i always find a way to let them down.  you can't know how amazing you make me feel but also how terrible i feel for what I've done, to you the one i love.  i don't know what the future holds for us.  i don't know where life will take us, but i pray that it finds you in my arms once again.  my love.