friendship and understanding

there are some things that you'll do that i will never understand.  and yet i feel as though i understand you more than anyone else that you know.  but that said, you have no idea how much you understand me.  you pick up on the slightest look, the smallest smile.  you know when I'm happy, sad, you know what I'm thinking.  you get everything about me.  but i think i surprised you today, i said something that took you back but i meant it, i told you why i get concerned for you sometimes.  for your health, wellbeing, and general safety.  the ultimate reason is selfish ill admit but also telling of my true feelings for you.  i want you around, in my life, in literally whatever capacity i can get you.  i want more than anything to be with you but if thats not in the cards, you're going to be in my life forever.  i can't have/let anything happen to you to keep that from happening.  i don't think you really understood that thats how i feel.  I've used the word love before in my life, but for some reason with you its different.  when i say it to you there is joy and pain and longing and security and safety and comfort behind it.  i know that you love me too and i know that you feel that same way.  i also know that I'm completely devoted to being your friend for the rest of my life.  and I'm talking about being a real friend.  real friends don't take they give.  freely and openly and without any thought of self.  my friendship with you is exactly that, i provide myself in every capacity possible.  without thoughts of myself.  i have dreams, hopes, and even potential visions of what the future might have in store for us but regardless of what happens, i will always be a steady rock in your life.  that you can hold on to when times are tough, that you can lean on for support, that you can hug and high five when times are good, that you can always depend on no matter what. period. because i am your friend.  a true friend to you, and likewise you are my best friend, my love, my princess, my shining star in the darkest of nights, my inspiration... you are my rock, a constant in a world that doesn't let up, or treat anyone fairly, or evenly.  you re in my thoughts always, you are the best person that i know and ultimately that best thing thats ever happened to me.  even though we've been through soooo much i know you know all of this but every once and a while, you need to hear it.  life will do what its going to do but as long as you're in mine i count myself as truly happy.  i truly and completely love you.