now is all we have

this notion has really been going through my head lately.  really the last few days, its had me both bummed out and really happy.  i know that this is the reality that you live with all the time.  we've spoken about it.  and everyone lives this to some extent everyday.  but lately its really been hitting me hard.  this is our life.  our time down the road isn't guaranteed, our time right now is all we can hold onto.  i love you, and will always love you.  and whilst the future isn't clear, i will always be yours.  i respect the hell out of you for living your live as freely as you have.  by doing what you want when you want.  that is what originally brought us together.  that is what has allowed both of us to be freely open with each other.  the way that you live your life has given me so much, it gave me you, it gave me my best friend.  it gave me so much happiness that I've always had trouble really describing it.  i respect and love you for that.  for the opportunity to learn how to live.  how to step back from the predetermined doldrums of life and to live in the moment.  the time that I've been so incredibly lucky to share with you will remain in my heart as the best times in my life.  bc I've gotten to share them with what i can only describe as the most perfect, beautiful, amazing, incredible, stunning, giving, sharing, and free person that i know.  you give so much of yourself and i always warn you against it when it comes to those who don't appreciate you, but i count myself as truly alive, living in the now bc of what you've shared of yourself with me.  and i love you for that.  i appreciate you for that.  and you, my best friend are the example that i try to live my life by.  your ability to live in the moment inspires me.  it encourages me and give me hope.  i love you my princess, and i thank you for showing me how to be a better person and helping me get there.  your the only true friend that I've ever had that has done that for me.