hopefully you are having an amazing time with your sister in cali. i wanted to write this to you to recognize your birthday and share some of my thoughts with you. i know that you are not into celebrating your birthday and that you don't like that kind of recognition and you've shared some of your thoughts about it with me. so please allow me to do the same:
most people view birthdays as a celebration of one accomplishments throughout their life or some type of milestone for having gotten this far. others view them as a clock, ticking either up or down depending on where that person is in life. i tend to take the celebration route but in a different way. i choose to celebrate not the accomplishments of the person but the impact that they have had on the people around them. i believe that recognition should be given not for having gotten this far but for having touched the people around you in a positive way. and i agree with you that people should be celebrated everyday not just once a year, and you know that i try to do this not with everyone but especially with you. that said, i also believe that one day set aside for this type of recognition isn't inappropriate, especially for you. so in the spirit of this i would like you to know a couple of things, some of this will be a reminder of things that I've told you that i feel and some will be a new view or perspective:
i talk a lot about the person that i see when i see you, i tell you of your beauty both inside and out. I've never exaggerated any part of how i feel with regards to this. the internal beauty that you poses is intoxicating. it is electric and addictive. it is full of life at its best and the more i get to know you and spend time with you the more I'm convinced of your absolute perfection. a perfection that takes on many forms, your ability to see past a persons exterior and to look into their soul. your willingness to see the good in people who hurt you. your strength to continue to get up and push back at life when it pushes you down. your ability to wade through adversity even when hope seems lost, and your ability to find and hold onto the slimmest piece of hope. your ability to hold onto successes and let them encourage you through times of setbacks. all of these strong character attributes you've gained make you the person that you are, and as a result, they make a very large impact on the people that you choose to call friends. some of this you earned through the trials that you've faced in life. some have been instilled by your family, which i have an amazing respect for. but all of these, the tip of the iceberg of the amazing person that you are, have affected me in a way that i will cherish for the rest of my life. you have shown me how to live, made me a better person by showing me who i am at a deeper level. you have made me realize things through your perspective of me that i would have never seen had you not been in my life. you've shown me a way to live with freedom and without inhibition. and whilst i learn from you everyday and it sometimes takes a while for me to truly understand, i could not be the person that i am today, or the person i will be tomorrow if it weren't for you. so instead of celebrating a ticking clock, i choose to celebrate your impact on my life personally. and the thing that really has me truly in awe of you is that i am just one person. a nobody. a speck in your life filled with thousands of others. and knowing what you've done for me, what you've shared, and given, and then realizing that there are so many others in your life. i hope and pray that they see what i see. that they understand what they have in their lives. how truly special they are to get to say they know you. dani you are truly unique and one of a kind. people wait their entire lives and never meet a person like you. i really count myself as lucky to have you in my life and i celebrate that. as you and i continue down our paths through life i will always celebrate that. and ill never get tired of it either. the person that you are needs to be celebrated not for accomplishments but for the impact that you have left on this world. and for the impact that you will continue to leave in the lives of those around you. not to get dark but you once told me that one of your biggest fears is that you will not be remembered by this would. and i can honestly tell you that through the life that you are living and the impact that you have already made on those around you, your fears have already been overcome. you have beaten, at such a young age, one of the things you've feared the most. and this world has no idea what else it is in store for. i know that you have so much more to give and i pray that you choose to give it to only the truly deserving, only to people that really understand what you mean. who you are. and no matter how long any of us have left in this world, i will until the day i die, always profess the goodness, happiness, caring, and light that you have brought to my life. i know i can get a little winded sometimes when putting into written word what i think and feel and i apologize for that. but the time it took to write this and the time it will take to read are but passing moments in life. and i believe that if i don't tell you how i feel or what i think, that i am ultimately letting you down and not living up to the standard that you have allowed me to set for myself. i hope that these words find you well, and fill you with happiness. i know that times can be tough and all i ever want to be for you is what you've been for me. I love you. truly and completely. have an amazing day, just as i tell you everyday, but know that i am celebrating you, not the clock or the things that you've accomplished in life, but the person that you are and the person that i love.
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