stress and recovery

i can only imagine what you've gone through over the last couple of days.  the stress and anxiety that you've endured shouldn't be forced on anybody.  there are many reasons for what happened and whilst you mentioned a few, there are probably more and you don't deserve those either.  i know i can sometimes add to this and believe me when i say that I'm sorry for that.  i can sometimes be selfish, not fully understanding your situation.  i only think of myself at those moments and my need to hear your voice.  my act was self-serving and i shouldn't have even brought it up.  i never want you to feel like that and i appreciate what you told me.  you don't need yet another stresser in your life.  you need a friend that you can rely on.  someone to lean on.  not someone who acts selfishly.  for that i apologize and hopefully you know that i never want to be that for you.  quite the opposite.  as you try to recover from this last week i hope you are able to put the stressers out of your mind and try to focus on the good.  you deserve to remember these times as positive.  this inevitably brings me to the greater point.  you told me today that you have so much stressing you out lately and that its starting to become almost too much.  i want so badly to step in and help you try to fix whatever those things are.  but i know i can't.  these are battles that you must fight alone. things that must be handled or conquered by you, and whilst i am here to support you, and give you advise, things will not get better until you take hold of these things and turn them around. you know more than anything else i want you to be happy.  i just wish i knew how to make that so.  i wish i had the one simple answer to most of your problems.  you know that i am always here for you.  i can always be counted on.  please don't ever take my intentions as anything but.  as you recover from this latest adventure, do your best to start facing these things that are stressing you.  build solutions into your life for these problems, i hate seeing you stressed.  i hate hearing it in your voice.  it tares me down knowing that you aren't happy or content and that you've got too much to worry about.  i long to hear your care free laugh again.  that beautiful smile on your face deserves a permanent home.  you need to fill your life with the things and people that make you the happiest and do not leave room for anything or anyone else.  if that means closing the chapter on this part of your life and moving then so be it.  i will always be there for you and that won't change no matter how far apart life has us.  wherever the stress is coming from, please my love, take that enormous amount of strength that i love about you and focus it on the positive and on getting rid of whatever it is that is keeping you down.  you are strong beyond measure, life prior stresses have given you that.  i only beg that you harness it now for your own happiness and wellbeing.  i love you my princess.  since the moment i laid eyes on you I've always know in some way that i would.  and i always will.  you have my support in everything.  and my help as far as i can lend it.