Apology

I'm sorry. Im sorry for the way things have turned out, for the stupid things I sometimes say. For the stress that I've caused you. For the hard times I put you through. There are times that I wish I could take so much of it back. There are times that I long for it to be as it was. That said there are a couple of things that I'm not sorry for and don't want to take back. Chief among them being that I had the opportunity to fall in love with you. I don't regret that for a minute, and never will. Through actions not of our own we've been pulled apart and I know that I have to accept that for the time being. It's hard for me. It's difficult to feel as though you've list the best thing that you've ever had. To not really say what you're thinking to the one person that really matters. Im sorry that I havnt been able to handle that in the best way. It's not easy for me. This is the only way that I can express what I really feel. Sometimes that cloudiness leads me to say things in a way that come out unintended. You're the most beautiful person I've ever known. It's hard for me to not tell you that on a daily basis. All I want to do is be close to you, hold you in my arms. Bc it's not just your physical beauty that attracts me to you, it's everything about you. Your very essence, inspires me to write this every day. This, my love is what i really think. An untampered look into my soul. Free of inhibitions or restrictions that I have around you. You already know I love you, and I'm ultimately sorry for everything I've ever done to you but that.... I'll never be sorry for sharing my heart with you and opening myself up to the joy and pain associated with that. One day you'll read this, and hopefully understand. I love you.